- Yina Goes

Dear Dayre,

Four more sleeps to Japan!!!!
I was looking through my #yinagoestojapan Dayre entries for my April trip and reading my entries made me feel even more gian to be back bwahahaha.

Been feeling so nua and drained out recently, and it's like I feel that a holiday is gonna do me so much good! But dunno is this a vicious cycle 😟 It's not like I didn't just travel/holiday. Hong Kong was only one month ago (tho it was a partial work trip)

Sometimes I dunno issit just me being a lazy ass or there's really too much on my plate and that's why at times I feel so unmotivated and uninspired to do anything at all.

Like today, I came home after choir rehearsal and dinner and I wanted to organize and pack up my room because it's getting sooooo messy with all the stuff I bring home from events and press kits that get sent over to me.

But I got home, changed into my PJs, and ended up taking a nice long nap 😂 Now it's 1.30am and I've just showered and I'm happily lying in bed and not so keen to get up and do the packing. Procrastinator max.

I blame it on my comfy platform bed.

Once I sink into my bed, it's soooooo hard to even want to get up again.. 😶

Strangely enough, I don't have that problem when I'm travelling. You know how some people like to sleep in when they're overseas because they need that break from walking up early everyday in singapore? I'm the opposite. I NEED to jump out of bed early in the morning to get myself ready for a day out. So usually I'm always the first to be awake no matter who I'm traveling with.

Being overseas really gets me excited to be up and about because the time in every country is so limited and precious! There is no time to waste!

BRB. I shall not procrastinate any longer 😑

Gonna on some music on spotify, turn on my aroma diffuser and get packinnnnnnn!!!! 👯👯

Gonna get rid of the mess.

(Don't judge my bedsheets color LOL these are my wedding sheets bought by my mom 😂)

YZ just got back and he's so tired that he's just sleeping despite my in-the-midst-of-packing chaos 😂

Halfway through the mess! 💪🏻

After this, I'll pack my wardrobe too if I'm still on my hyper-packing mode 👻

(Can't find any cleaning up room emotion so this will do)

Spent the past 2 hours plus cleaning up and my room looks neater already! Don't think the wardrobe cleaning will happen now, I'll tackle that tomorrow 😂 At least I did something productive yay!!!!!!!

I'm so disorganized sometimes I don't know how I live with it. Physically already messy, then my digital living spaces (ie computer and digital devices) are so cluttered and disorganized too 😓

Good afternoon Sunday! Slept at 3am plus and woke up at 11am hehehehe

Three more sleeps now!

Read that Tokyo just had a 5.4 magnitude earthquake though 😟 After the massive flooding that occurred just a few days ago!

Must remember to buy my travel insurance!

5-year-old little Yina.

I saw @timothytiah's post with his childhood photos and could relate to him immediately because I was born with eye ptosis (大小眼) too!

And then yesterday I read @soapz's entry about how media personalities like to dramatize and victimize themselves as being bullied in childhood with a sob story and all that.

LOL so I commented saying now I feel guilty talking about my fat and sad past.

But actually sometimes I really feel that a lot of folks won't understand how it feels to be "different" from the rest because it truly makes you feel alienated and alone.

It's all a matter of perspectives though. I think people who have a more sensitive or emotional personality will always be easily affected and will experience negative emotions more intensely. So even a very small incident will leave a very strong impression on a sensitive/emotional person.

Speaking of that, I just watched Pixar's Inside Out animated film a few days ago!

I enjoyed it but YZ fell asleep 😂 He's very much more of an action film kinda guy, ah well.

The reviews are very good for the movie so if you're a fan of animated films, go catch it!!

Some parts were so sad 😭 But I found it pretty funny in general and I loved the way our inner psyches are represented by different characters/feelings that control our emotions.

In other news, preparing to head out for a wedding dinner tonight soon! It's my 表舅's wedding and he requested for YZ and I to sing for him 😐

Usually I only accede to such requests for really close friends and relatives because I'd much rather be sitting at the table and enjoying my food 😂

I feel very awkward in front of the mic when it comes to speaking because of my lisp. Discussed my lisp with my voice teacher and we think that my tongue is too big and fat and that's why I can't say "S"?

It's also a big part of why I prefer text as a medium to express myself instead of speech. It's just easier and less awkward for me though it has gotten a lot better over the years. But I still feel very self-conscious when I'm on radio or on video.

So sometimes I speak on snapchat videos and once this random person snapchatted me something quite abruptly rude like "You sound like you speak with a short tongue?"

😑

I just replied her "Hahahaha yes I do have a short tongue :)"

I think one of the problems causing my lisp is that my tongue frenulum (I just googled that. It is that web that connects your tongue to the bottom of your mouth!) is short as well and impedes the movement of my tongue!

😳

Can all of you do me a favour and check out your own frenulum and tell me if mine looks shorter than usual 😂😂😂 Because I have never realized this before, only during my discussion with my voice teacher!

Here's a badly taken iPhone front camera photo of mine. It does look quite short and thick. And I've experimented and realized that doing certain tongue stretches (like trying to point my tongue up to touch my nose) makes the frenulum feel very uncomfortably tight and slightly painful.

Note: just looked at YZ's one but his doesn't look much longer than mine 😂 It's apparently not giving him any problems.

Red lipstick on teehee this is one of my favourite red lipsticks by far!

Urban Decay Matte Revolution's Bad Blood 😍

Did my hair in a half updo by myself 😂😂😂 Basically I just tied a half ponytail and twisted it in so basic until cannot. But ok looks decent!

Capella wedding!

Super grainy and bad snapchat photo haha

Ok here's a better one!!!

Waiting for our segment to sing later and it's a little stressful because the band that's playing is Jack & Rai! (They are a very established local duo).

Lol hopefully we won't sound too terrible.